I consider myself pretty active, and I am only 10kg off my goal weight but when I get there does not equal the end of my journey. This act of living nourished is a lifestyle and my way of saying thankyou to my body for all that it does for me.
I'm healthy, have a beautiful daughter and loving friends and family. I have to ask myself; 'Why would I want to ruin any of that by not nourishing my mind, body or life?'
Do I really want to starve myself?
Do I really want to over eat?
Do I really want to eat that deep fried crap?
Do I really want to wake up lethargic?
Do I really want to have blemishes?
Do I really want to feel stressed?
Do I really want to have excess fat?
No! I really don't.
So why do we do it? Why do we put ourselves through such distress, depleting everything that we have going for us?
This is a question I have asked myself countless times...For a good portion of my life I have lived through self diagnosed eating disorders. One moment I would starve myself, eating only small portions of food when needed...and feel in control. The next, I would be overeating like there was no tomorrow...feeling very much out of control.
I felt helpless, sluggish, unhappy, never good enough, exhausted...unhealthy.
I believe the key to breaking free is to discover what is making you this way. What negative obstacles and making your mind, body and life unhealthy?
Only when you can accept that food is a beautiful part of life and that it's ok to sometimes have a treat...that exercise can make you feel happy but then again so can sitting at home reading a book...will you be able to truly nourish your body.
My negative obstacles have always been how I see my body. As fat! Fat to me seems like such a dirty word, and that worries me...I have been living an unhealthy cycle where I would eat, eat, eat (all the wrong things) then realise how unhappy I am with how I look...so I would turn to restricting what I ate. At one point of my life (pre-pregnancy), I was going to the gym twice a day, working full time in the city and only eating a spoon of peanut butter. I felt like I had such control over my mind, body and life. When in reality I was so out of control and I never wish to return to that place ever again.
When I fell pregnant, I gained 30kg. I was huge...so after I gave birth I was determined to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight (remember I had been just eating peanut butter?) Needless to say, I didn't turn to the peanut butter this time thankfully, but I finally got back to the 73kg range. Most of it naturally came off, some of it was from restricting how much I ate, some from the gym.
As soon as I got there though, I still wasn't happy. My mind, body and life were far from being nourished.
My body mass index (BMI) is currently at an unhealthy weight range, and has been pretty much my whole life. I decided it was time to do something about it and take my health serious for once.
That's when I saw that my local gym was running 'The Biggest Loser' for the next ten weeks. I figured, why not? I doubt I will win since I only wish to loose a minor 10kg but it will keep me motived, on track and accountable. I get a weekly personal training session, a weekly group training session and a weekly weigh in where my food intake is also reviewed.
You want to know the best part? I started exercising and eating rather healthy almost two weeks prior and I already feel amazing!!!
Not only am I waking up feeling happy, energised and ready for whatever comes my way...but my skin looks brighter, I look forward to nourishing my body with food and I don't overeat! It's like there was this whole other side to life that I have been missing out on for the past 24 years. It's now time for me to nourish my mind, body and life.
From now on, I'm Living Nourished. xxx
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